The things we do right after we wake up tell a lot about our state of mind.take my girl for example,she sleeps like she gets paid to do it while i toss and turn like a forsaken lover on their honey moon.I have always hated that journey into nothingness,that six to seven hours when your subconscious lets you know your deepest and darkest fears in the weirdest way possible.
She shakes me out of another world,sweat soaking the sheets with my hands clasped together.She looks worried as i wipe cold beads of sweat off my brow and chest,
“another one of your dreams?”she asks pensively
“yeah…did i wake you?”its a stupid question but i still ask,
“ulikua unatwitch,thought you were fucking someone in your dreams”
“nope…i wasn’t,i was running…”i confirm that real quick.
“from that pussy?”She smiles trying to mask her drowsiness,
“i was actually about to die before you woke me”standing to open the window.
The cold breeze makes short work of the pent up warmth as the rush of cool air brings me back to reality,fully.I try to remember the dream,The intensity of this made up world were all my fears are laid bear.
“What were you running from?”she asks covering up as the room gets colder.
“i don’t know yet…it happened so fast,i was holding someones hand…”
“a girls hand?”she quips with a sly smile
“No…i didn’t see a face,she died though,in my arms i think”the smile disappears.
“We both know my dreams are shit dimples…”i try to lighten the mood as she settles back in bed and beckons for me to join her.
The rest of the night is spend trying to understand the lesson in my dreams and avoiding that damp area on the bed.After a slow morning and two cups of coffee i try to learn more about dreams.Turns out running usually means that there is an issue in my life that i have to resolve or something and then the other dreams about fighting and dying in an alternate universe surrounded by black dongs on fire with dolls in their mouths…
suffice to say,i need to do a little more research and chalk all the weirdness up to a over-active imagination.My girl is kind of used to my trips to the other side,she likes helping me retrace my steps as we marvel at how unpredictable they can all be.As i wake up every other night and compare my unorthodox dreams to my reality,i can relate a few of the quiet lesson and hidden messages my mind tries to force feed my conscious mind and when they get too dark i can always stay up and share in dimples’s perfect sleep.